What ifs and should haves

Image from the Instagram handle of the movie  “James” wakes up as “Sundaram”, intersecting two worlds; a Kerala theatre troupe and a village in Tamil Nadu. Lijo Pellissery's directorial 'Nanapakal Nerath Mayakkam', a Malayalam-Tamil movie starring Mammootty, starts off at a roadside motel in Velankanni, Tamil Nadu.  A theatre troupe from Kerala visits the pilgrimage shrine in Velankanni, the group is loaded on a bus and plans their return to Kerala. Actor Ashokan’s character who is one among the pilgrims has an urgency to get back home sooner as he has a ration shop to open the next morning.  But James ( Mammootty) comes late to take the bus, simply because he functions on his own terms, he shows off his arrogance and is a patriarch who nitpicks about everything to his wife Sally (Ramya Suvi).    His son and the others sing to pass the time during the bus ride and James instantly gets annoyed and stops them   Just when one observes James closely, the movie drifts to everyon

Is it about time or era or money or what is it that brings attention to help in each other's survival is it love, but if it is love- in what measure? how do I scream to the world, do i have to fly up above all levels of the atmosphere and reach the zenith of the universe, to be loud how long is my voice going to last, and in what countries is it going to echo and does this matter? do I have to be sentimental to be heard, will my anger, anger them? why is it so difficult to disappear if I don't exist in the first place?  why am I made to shut up and listen?

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