What ifs and should haves

 ************************************* When I was a child I never had good dreams at sleep I had to go through a lot to sleep, that part hasn't changed There was always too much chaos, sometimes in a desert, marooned Sometimes fire that would gulp down my whole Sometimes waterbodies too vast that I can't control The water sources if not shallow are scarier to imagine. Think of someone made to sit on a pole but in the middle of a sea And the wind is soo hard that the pole starts swinging and the little wooden plank on which you are sitting is drifting out of control There's no trace of land that you don't know in what direction to scream for help It's not like many would help even then, coz the sea could be afar Help is also impossible coz they don't know you exist Maybe there's no land at all In dreams, you don't get nostalgia not because the realm doesn't exist in the dream But because not all have the privilege of nostalgia, maybe yo

T his post is on @doctorswithoutborders MSF website and also there are other blogs and TB stories that you can go through. Hope TB talks keep happening and we end the stigma. Sending solidarity and love to people living in pain. Hope we share our stories, overwhelm the system to listen to us. Tuberculosis and drug resistant tuberculosis is not something that you should post about only on World TB day, coz its just not on TB day alone we are associated with tuberculosis. Link to the blog : https://blogs.msf.org/bloggers/athira-elssa-johnson/tb-me-surviving-tb-mdr-tb-and-negligent-system

**The TB mentions in the writeup is from my personal experience and learning with tuberculosis and drug resistant tuberculosis only.*** So most of the time when there is a mention of tuberculosis, nobody wants to associate with it even just talking about it...Drug resistant tuberculosis which is deadlier is not talked about at all too ( and these two are different : Drug resistant Tuberculosis and Tuberculosis is not the same, not getting into that now ) But even when the stigma of shame is there and even when tb community is not given attention, In one way or the other you are all, we are all associated with tuberculosis , like we are associated with breathing. But if that ain't shaking our conscience  ,by considering the stats, definitely people living with us or next to us are affected by tuberculosis and Drug resistant tuberculosis, someone in the family doesn't want to talk about what they are going through because they do not feel safe to talk about it. We are the same pe