What ifs and should haves

A question that peeps in frequently in my mind from the very start of my routine...my day begins with a refreshing face wash and there when I see a yellow tint in the water it angers me because when I pay my tax for the water services ..How come I get supplied with dirty water...herein I doubt... AM I JUST A TAX PAYER?? .When I go get a few edibles of my choice from the nearby canteen I presume that its healthy to take in, unless I see filth stuck on its packing...And then I curse myself for trusting the food inspection schemes of the government...and herein I doubt AM I JUST A TAX PAYER?? A fine walk and a smooth ride on the roads are hindered with gutters and puddles....Men die or perish on the road due to the horrific state of the roads, speeding, less security to masses..... Where elected leaders and public servants go with innumerable escorts mostly for an inauguration .An inauguration that would make the whole place cordoned, schools closed, hospital not approachable, t

Change is  soothing until and unless it haunts peace..everyday in school was exciting for me not because I had a very good teacher to guide ...it was just because I had jovial sets of friends with whom I felt easy and comfortable more than in any lecture...  when I have stepped into college and so are they ..and when those cute little moments flash through my mind I deliberately push them out...may be because I am a girl so stubborn to think that matters that are "OK" for many seem so awkward to me..analysing all of them I still feel that  the word "maturity "  is not right the way my  so called  "grown up" school friends  have defined.. when they were crowned with a teen title and gradually "adult " they might have thought attaining things that are far off reach equals to reaching the pinnacle of success..I heard them using words that were unknown to many of us like "stuff","weed"..and so on..guys who still yesterday discuss