What ifs and should haves

Let me take you to a regular scene in my house when men in the family get into a conversation, my sister and I being keen observers here, we literally wait for the very patriarchal, sexist, misogynistic, chauvinistic narratives brazed in Christian preaching oozing out from our male family members. We somehow sense this coming whatsoever the topic of the talk is. We grin each other and interrupt like this, “haaa there comes PP aka The Penis Power”. This is because this was the only method that shut their mouth. We had to constantly interrupt and remind that we are here to call it out.  And since the nun rape case broke and Franco Mullackal became the matter of hot discussion, in the initial stage of the case our Christian neighbours and relatives made reasons to visit and hold discussions at home for they know Franco Mullackal had been my father’s junior back then in seminary. Talks went on and on and every word aimed at the character scrutiny of the nun; the rape survivor.  P.C. Geor

He sends same song to other women and I thought I was the special one.. All his words plagiarised and I thought they were written afresh for me and me only.. Marx was his favourite name and now I know he didnt mean it.. We shared similar philosophy but his was farther from practise.. I always hated poems for he used to send me zillions of them.. people stare in rage when I say I trust no love and forevers ever again Little they know I am scared to lose and cant bear it again.. Women are dark continents like some thinkers say,  for we bear things in heart that your hard muscles rarely understand.. He used abbreviations when I speak details, I thought he is a man of few words but nope thats all he had to say.. He said he bears empathy but that's only where I got tricked.. He talked like a teacher who kept an eye on what I read and I do not encourage an entry as such to my home library.. I stopped penning poems at 19 when they looked like a page from my diary..

On their 80th anniversary The Express group did publish some of their memorable older editions since 1932. The blank edit to protest againt declaration of emergency is from the same collections under June 28, 1975, Marks a time when some of the scribes refused to compromise, not ready to crawl.  The point to foster here is 'I still believe in the fire that fearless journalists pass on ,reminding that a true  journalist should never fancy that Arnab Goswami is journalism and Modi is India'.

The anti-kerala propaganda unleashed by the saffron fools are shooed away with befitting replies of rage by malayalees. The one positive thing on feed is, that friends who were politically apathetic, ignorant and uninterested before , now initiate dialogues and discourses on political issues ❤. We do feel pity for the ones who are still romanticising the attitude of the centre towards Kerala and also defending the sangh framed stories. Coming across their posts I wish fb had a ' I am throwing a brick on your face reaction'. 😏😤

As we never forget the supporting pillars who are constantly helping to get back at our strong footing from this disastrous pace, well also keep noting the venom spitting mouthpieces of hatred. Spreading fake news with no shame; Stoop down in some cow dung as you always like it. !!!! This "chanakathalayan" from my college,  happened to be in my contact list,  despite spreading a fake news that says " Kerala man denies saffron life jacket and dies" he  is  now preaching in the college whatsapp group on how "neutral" the news is(I know! doesn't make any sense) ! Unfortunately some of them are all wrapped in cow dung and they seem to enjoy it. Like somebody already posted, Oh.Y'all !please, soon after cleaning this flood made mess,  lets also make the area cowdung free.

What more instances are we waiting to realise that we are dealing with a system that does not have a conscience.  A politician feels very comfortable to make inflammatory remarks like, " Had I been the Home Minister I would order cops to shoot the intellectuals ". Journalists having that audacity to label dissenting students as terrorists on TV.  Anti-nationals, terrorists  are the terms crowned on the thinking community. The trend of the present dispensation is to point guns at the dissidents. Like Ramachandra Guha comments, " This is the most anti- intellectual government ever. " In fact this is "anti-everything that's good".

When a major fraction of the intelligentsia in our country is threatened with inflammatory statements such as by a BJP MLA that he would ask the cops to shoot the intellectuals if he was the CM, are  instances of disturbance and agitation.  Unfortunately  such  pure  seditions  attain  comfy  in  the  largest  democracy  that  brags  of  acceptance, tolerance and harmony. But it is an undeniable fact that the mental health of a large fragment of sane, concerned and politically aware student community is deteriorating day by day. Much more slanderous comments from a section that is not so glad with criticisms can be expected in this  period. The evident example is the tagging students, activists and intellectuals as anti-nationals from the very beginning of any kind of resistance and movements. In such complexities, the student population is probably in a predicament on which way to choose. Shall they blindly obey by being mere puppets of any governmental policies or being to con

It’s been like 2years or so since I have jotted down something quite long, apart from micro content scribbling no other effortful matter have quenched my thirst to quest for something that the intellectually stimulating people call as qualitative. A numerous happenings took place in the span of time, a lot very painful struggles; mental, physical and financial have passed, love comes and goes, hatred stays and pokes, news timeline is trash that also can’t be ignored, the already growing intelligentsia  amongst a vast sphere is terrific but not very empathetic and kind. In this regretful yet thought provoking pace , the most heart rendering plight have been my failed efforts to explain things, Aged 22 ,disoriented ,naive and stupid, I have been acting and reacting with zero plan. The most harsh and painful state is when you are stuck in an area that you soooo hated in particular, when you get to live with people whose mindset is what you are fighting against, to be thrashed by the o